Writing Life

Hiatus and Fear

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Uh oh ya’ll,  Time for a personal blog. You can probably already tell what it is about, but don’t worry I won’t be gone forever.

All,

You might have noticed I haven’t been sticking to my goal of weekly blog posts- and I apologize for that. Writing is more than a hobby for me but it is also not my full-time job. My job is one that takes a lot of time and energy, at the end of the day I’m drained. Mostly because it is one that doesn’t bring me much joy.

It does send me all over the world though, exposing me to new cultures, delicious foods, and amazing sights. This is one of the few things I like about the job as it allows me to be a #wanderingwriter, taking my laptop and my stories wherever I go.

Last week it was Japan. And at the end of this month, it will be somewhere else.

I tell you all this because duty has called and I will be gone for roughly 3 months.

Right now there are a lot of things I don’t know. What my work schedule will look like, if I’ll have access to internet, if I’ll have time to keep up the steady stream of twitter, blogging, and instagram posts. Which is why I have decided to go on a 3 month hiatus starting 24 March.

I wish I could promise to still be lurking and posting, but ultimately I just don’t know. A year deployed to Korea taught me that a busy work environment is not conducive for creativity.

I hate going on hiatus. The H-word is scary because I feel like I lose momentum, time and opportunities. In 3 months we’ll be halfway into the year of 2019 and I don’t want to have nothing to show for it.

I talk a lot regarding the fear of writing and publication on this blog. But this is what I fear the most, time wasted. This fear stems from a lot of pent up anxiety regarding our dreams and career goals. Like most, I want to be published before 30. I want to share my stories with people as soon as possible. Every rejection, every postponed opportunity preys on this fear.

All I can promise is that I’ll do my best to keep writing, keep pushing, and return to blogging when this is done.

That’s all we can do when life tries to get in the way of our creative hobbies. Keep writing, even if it is deep into the night. Even after working for 12 hours. Because we have to remind ourselves this is important.

I’ll be back in three months and hopefully, I’ll have some great new stories and announcements for you all. In the meantime, take care!

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